Dineo experienced dramatic events and emotional pain from a young age. She was raised by different childminders, and that left her feeling isolated and unloved because she had no parental affection.
I became depressed after my father left us when we were still young. This made me develop anger towards him and I no longer wanted to speak to him or anyone in his family. This anger turned into grudges that were so deep-seated that I started suffering from anxiety attacks.
Nosipho believed that attending church services was like being imprisoned, not realising that true imprisonment was being distant from God. She was already attending services in the Universal Church, but the church environment felt restrictive for her because she saw her friends seemingly enjoying their carefree lives and she longed for that freedom.
I had low self-esteem and lacked confidence. I felt inadequate, like I was not good enough. No one knew what I was going through at home because I was a quiet child who kept to myself. Later, we returned to the city, and I went back to the church and got involved in the youth activities in the church.
In grade 8, I received my first smartphone. I texted men and had inappropriate conversations with them, and I took seductive pictures of myself. I was desperate for love and I was willing to go to any extremes to receive it. I wanted to be recognised and I befriended anyone and everyone on social media.
Growing up, Sonto felt empty and was always angry. She drank alcohol and smoked cigarettes to fill the void she felt inside. She always wanted to be intoxicated because she thought there was no reason to be sober. Her situation worsened after she became a victim of sexual assault.