Alone and in Despair

“My sister and I were raised by our grandmother. She fell sick and was diagnosed with diabetes. Shortly after that, she passed on. We had to move in with my mother and stepfather. It was not easy because we did not have a close relationship with our mother. After 8 years, my mother passed on as well.

 

We then stayed with our uncle who took good care of us. He provided everything we needed. He was also diagnosed with diabetes and soon afterwards, passed on. After that, everything turned upside down. No one wanted us to live with them. Our relatives could not take care of us. We had to live alone.

 

My uncle left money for us, but it did not last for a long time. Things were hard for me as the older one. I had to learn to fend for myself and take care of my sister. I was emotionally affected. I had a void which seemed to worsen every day. I dated several men to fill the emptiness I felt. I fell pregnant and that made my situation even more distressing because I was still a teenager and I was already struggling. The father of my child was absent from our lives.

 

Around the time I was pregnant, I was invited to attend services in the Universal Church, but I did not go because I felt ashamed. After I gave birth, I decided to go to the church. I felt welcome and no one was judgmental. I often heard preaching about the Holy Spirit and how He would transform my life. I needed that transformation. I started engaging in the chains of prayers on Wednesdays for my spiritual development. I committed myself to God. In leaps and bounds, my life changed.

 

I no longer have a void. I do not date different men any more. I am happily married and have a family of my own. I am at peace because I know that God is with me,” said Ongezwa.