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Discovering that her mother had lied about her father's death left Thembi a bitter and angry child.
"I was in primary school when my mother told me that my father had passed away when I was five years old. Years later I was surprised and in disbelief when my aunt told me she had met my father in a nearby town. I was 14 years old at that time and my aunt didn’t know that my mother had lied to me about my father's death.
The news that my father was still alive and had a family somewhere left me bitter and angry. I could not understand why my mother had lied to me and why my father never came to see me. I resented them both. I developed suicidal thoughts because I felt unloved and abandoned by my father who had left us and never took care of my needs. I also felt betrayed by my mother who had lied to me," she said.
In 2013, both her parents passed away within a period of eight months. "My father's relatives told us he passed on after a short illness. His passing left me with many unanswered questions. My mother followed eight months later. That was a double tragedy for me because she passed away before we could resolve our issues and I was still boiling with anger at the time," said Thembi.
That was when Thembi realised that she needed to let go of the past, make peace with what had happened and allow God to work in her life.
She took part in the chains of prayer on Wednesdays for her spiritual development and on Fridays for deliverance from suicidal thoughts.
"I was delivered from suicidal thoughts. I was also able to release the grudges I held against my mother and my father. Forgiving them gave me peace and inner healing. I learned to depend on God and trust Him as my Father and my provider. The presence of God in me gave me a reason to live and appreciate the life God gave me," she said.